Songs:
1. Alone
2. Shot through my head
3. Red balls of fire
4. Beyond the walls
Aufgenommen
Ende 1997 in Reutlingen
Produziert von Uwe Rasch+Stephen Krämer
Coverdesign Florian Bengs
Alone
(S. Madaus)
At
the time when you left me
there was no room to cry
I made a fool about myself
better feelings I tried to hide
I
was cold so I wasn`t vulnerable
I built walls around my wounded heart
I feel fear and I think that I`m not able
to find my way out of this dark
I`m
alone - a prisoner of my own beliefs
I lost it all - I changed love into those walls
Inside it`s cold - and I know there`s no relief
from this pain - cause no one hears my calls
...this is isolation
Where
is my reason
where is my light
where are my feelings
where is my guide
When
I dream I see a boy in a garden
laughing and running around
He is playing in a hyacinth field
when he`s tired he sleeps on a hyacinth bed
Time
teach me crying
time teached me not to forget
that loneliness is the hardest burden
sometimes I need a rest.
nach
oben
Shot
through my head
(S. Madaus)
Yes
I`m leaving soon
I`m going home
back to my birthplace
back to mother earth
When
a nightmare
turns to real
and a happy life
into a dream
Then
it`s time to leave
time to go
no sense (for living) anymore
My
life is like a candle
nearly burned down to the end
the flame is getting smaller
and the light grows dim
Sitting
in the darkness
by the fire
I`m a stranger
with no desire
It
hurts in my brain
It hurts my soul
Shot through my head
so I will be dead
nach
oben
Red
balls of fire
(T. Birgel+S. Madaus/S. Madaus)
When
I was young
I liked to wander through a park
through the park of illusion
with flowers and some love
When
I was worried
there was a hand who led me the way
the sun of hope was rising
through clouds of dispair
I
didn`t need words
something to say
I just sat there
and watched the sunlight
fade away
I
was watching the twighlight
the sun and the clouds
a red ball of fire
soon would come the night
I
was filled with passionate pain
when the sun had disappeared
the guide of life had left me
I was alone but I wasn`t scared
Cause
I knew I had the patience
to wait for the end of the night
I was strong enough to suffer
and suddenly I saw the sunrise
Now
I`m old enough
to see the things like they are
now I don`t need illusions
but the child in me remains
Red
ball of fire
help me through my darkest hours
through the darkness it will shine
and in the end
there will always be a light
nach
oben
Beyond
the walls
(S. Madaus)
I`ve
come to the end of a long long road
since I don`t know when I asked myself:
where will it end
but still I don`t know where to go
even after all those years - I am alone
I`ve
come to the end of a long long day
how should I manage my life
when I just can`t succeed one day
in a world where no one loves you
is no place for me at all
I`m a bird of emotion who first flew high
but now he falls
I`m
a dreamer when pain becomes strong
I hide myself behind masks and illusions
but I don`t realize that I run into confusion
I guess there comes a time
when all my dreams will stop
Beyond
the walls of death
in another time
will exist no more suffering and no more pain
no more lies, no more tears
no more hate, no more fears
Still
I stand on this long road
this road is my life and I have to carry on
my way might be hard and my heart
might be hurt
but I can`t change my fate
My
way might be long or maybe short
but to live in desperation is not enough
there is something else that I sometimes feel
beyond the walls we begin to see
I
rejoice in the beauty of all my dreams
I don`t want to know what might be
beyond the walls I`ll begin to see
beyond the walls I will be free
As
I knew it that something was going on
as if I felt (it) that someone`s time has come
as if I heard it from the angels above
that life is a mystery and sometimes pretty tough
Life
can be heaven
but it`s definately hell
when death comes unplanned
and unwanted as well
